rainbow

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2010-01-04T15:33:00.007+08:00

Ok i hate photo alignment in blogger , so i'm moving to wordpress (:

link : ingyang.wordpress.com

rainie love ~

2010-01-01T23:02:00.005+08:00

2010年1月1日，雨，第118天

iTs 2010 already .. !
i just want to find back happiness .

anyway last night went out to celebrate 2010 , went steamboat , arcade , movie , then went back to yw house at 3am . haha so heng just nice got 2 taxi for us .. watch saw 5 and some zombie show until 7am then go home sleep le!

haha then wake up already fly to marina to buy rainie's new album tt released today 雨爱!
then got some other apparels ..

so tired now haha (:

:(

2009-12-28T03:26:00.001+08:00

it isn't always colourful .

;;;

2009-12-23T14:59:00.004+08:00

2009年12月23日，雨，第109天

Haha yesterday so fun haha , went PS first to see jay chou and lin zhi ling haha , they look so small my view since i was at 4th level .. before that was playing pool and bowling with ed and willis (:
After that eat steamboat with aq alan and melvin , then went clementi meet cindy and tommy then go kbox le hahaha.
Sing like mad then everyone went ki siao hahaha !
went back at 3am after that haha (:
gotta do work liao , hehe !
_____

我不会再相信爱情了。
我会恨你一辈子。

风云

2009-12-12T23:43:00.006+08:00

2009年12月13日，晴，第99天

wa ! 2 weeks never post already !
just got back from Genting .. quite nice bah there , but the only thing i really like was the scenery , with the clouds like engulfing everything around you , the hotels and so on . Then you can see the endless plains of all the tropical trees and stuff. hmm, maybe i like to be calm and peaceful bah , those rides not for me ): except for cable car lah , you get to see lots more of rainforest . so sad i forgot bring camera there ...

haha anyway forgot to say now Genting is chio-bu 满天下！

then for the past 2 weeks .. mainly is go out shopping , then gym , then do some work , then play finish Dragon Age:Origins already (:

my shopping list getting bigger and bigger already .. then plus i'm going to have to re-dye and cut my hair .. so its 99 + 109 + 80 +120 + 69 . lucky got my LV wallet already although its quite big ):

byebye tmr wont be getting much sleep cause of 海派甜心 and at night gotta go pub watch arsenal liverpool (:
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如果你愿意一层一层一层的剥开我的心，

你会发现

你是我最深处的秘密。

_____

请你一定要幸福。

风云

2009-11-29T12:57:00.004+08:00

2009年11月29日，晴天，第84天

Hehe so long never update le .
Finally got my laptop with decent graphics card haha now can play game already !

Nothing much happened these few days ,
but i just found a new job , is make website for alan's father ,
i'll be getting 800 dollars for that haha , then i'm off to Genting!
Nowadays so boring ,
got nothing to do , play Borderlands , if not take the new Canon 5D MarkII camera go out take picture ...

So much better , don't have to think about too many things.
It could have been better than this, if you believed in me.
Smoking habit so much better already! (:

I'm going to become the 阳光宅男！(sunshine boy^^ )
Ok going to Zara shopping already, i'm not going to be the same the next time you see me.
I'll change. Í promise.

btwbtwbtw everyone go watch 海派甜心！ (:

-

2009-11-20T20:28:00.004+08:00

2009年11月20日，雨，第76天

请在你走之前，

告诉我，

你有没有爱过我

有没有真的关心我。

if you had a choice , would you turn back ?

walkman

2009-11-18T11:05:00.004+08:00

2009年11月18日，晴，第74天

wow so long never blog le ,

it's been 1 week since o level ended !

so many things happening recently ,

yuwei birthday , go vivo eat then play lan until 9am ,

yesterday went kbox with chevron & cousin and yw alan , but then i no mood sing ): ,

i ordered my laptop from Dell already ! hehe

chionging w3k like mad , reaching level 30 soon !

Gym routine gonna start soon ..

anyway a few days ago i saw this girl (: .... @_@

heheh forget it .

_____

等我们的童话,

等故事长大

I'll wait.

_____

画沙

2009-11-09T23:33:00.002+08:00

2009年11月9日，雨，第65天

十一月的萧邦－November'sChopin

So 1 paper left for the day after tomorrow.

Do i wish that 11/11 comes faster , or do i wish that it doesn't come ?

4 months free doesn't seem very exciting to me ..

Anyway f the cigar , now i'm bad sorethroat ):

1400 days ago , O'levels were a long long way

Now i'm left with 1 day to the finish

If only i could go to the time machine , go back in time ,

so many things i wish i can change ,

not just results ,

many many things .

Probably it's too late . ):

So many regrets.

If only i was strong enough to face my mistakes , instead of making the mistake deeper .

If only...

Maybe...

Tell me ,

what should i do ?

_____

你要离开我知道很简单
你说依赖是我们的阻碍
就算放开那能不能别没收我的爱
当作我最后才明白

don't leave?

byebye (:

2009-11-05T22:09:00.003+08:00

2009年11月5日，雨，第60天。

iguess.this.is.it

overnight lan again ):

anyway left 3 papers , lit 1 lit 2 , science 1 .

which means 6 more days only !

but then i don't know what to do after that ..

quite confident about geography for a2 ~ b3 ,

then physics + chemistry b4 shouldn't be a problem bah i hope (:

想回到过去

i want to go back to the past
试着抱你在怀里

羞怯的脸带有一点稚气
想看你看的世界
想在你梦的画面

i want to be in your dreams
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜

想回到过去

i want to go back to the past
试着让故事继续

try to let the story continue
至少不再让你离我而去

at least i won't let you leave me
分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧
这样挽留不知还来不来得及
想回到过去

.

2009-10-31T01:35:00.002+08:00

2009年10月31日，雨，第61天

so disappointed in you .

ohhhh ! math no kick !

i'm thinking p1 65/80 , p2 80/100 --> 79% --> A1 or A2 !

haha 财神爷 bless me , tmr 4D open 4016 , i bought ! let me win 8000 dollars divided by 2 .

i'm giving 50% to my mother my father my grandfather my grandmother and my brothers !

then treat frenzz to royalchina@raffles loh !

kk don't think too much . just hope tomorrow open 1st 2nd or 3rd price !

& my olevel expectation changed to 13 points liao . since math can A2 . was 18 cause i was expecting math c6 ! ha ha !

k so tmr go orchard walk walk then go study again , this time got da-sao ha ha .

so many things to think about , i'm thinking no cut hair till collect results day , some colour too , but no tattoos , maybe piercing .. aiya dun wan so ahbeng lah , im mature man already dont do this kind of stupid thinggg. k la except throw some eggs somewhere after olevel (:

i tell u i don't know how bad am i . just 1 bad habit only ! other people sniff glue , eat drugs , sniff some druggy shit , steal from shops , even vodka can steal . these are all out of us , definitely !

after olevel like too long leh , then plans too little also . dunno what to do ...

class outing don't seem fun also , anyway dont think will have .

closer to 11th day by day loh ! from now its 10 dayszzz . huat ah !

wish everyone good luck too (:

meowwwwwwwwwwW

Can I have directions?

(To where?)

To your heart.

原来不是我爱错，是我错。

2009-10-29T22:14:00.002+08:00

2009年10月29日，雨，第59天

ughh last night went alan house there overnight again ha ha . went swiimming at like 11 pm also , coldd ..

k anyway math and english over le ! next is combined.humanities and combined science (:

soon i'll complete 10 years in fairfield !

meow

2009-10-24T22:12:00.004+08:00

2009年10月24日，晴，第53天

mm ha ha wtf 2 days ago went alan house stay , end up watch midnight movie , then play overnight lan until 5 plus , then still can't sleep , play dota at alan house until 10 in the morning , wake up 2 in the afternoon haha .

but nevermind today got study a lot (:

ha ha so now i'm supposed to go with sweepenn to go drinking after o levels cause he haven't tried anything like that before hahaha . so many plans , there's dye hair , see got underage clubbing a not , uhmm more overnight lan , party , genting and so on haha . just 18 more days if i'm correct !

k so everything starts the day after tomorrow .

everything ends 16 days after the day after tomorrow

"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice but falling in love with you I had no control over."

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Straight through my heart

A single bullet got me
I can't stop the bleeding
Ohhhh
Straight through my heart
She aimed and she shot me
I just can't believe it
Ohhhh
No I can't resist
And I can't be hit
I just can't escape this love
Straight through my heart
Soldier down (my heart)
Soldier down (my heart)

baby , you know that i miss you

2009-10-20T23:29:00.005+08:00

2009年10月20日，晴，第47天

haven't post in quite a while le i guess ..

mm these few days study study study , today slightly more fun than other days cause we got sit the simulator@sciencecentre and then after that go swimming . but still got study .

left some more math practice then science revision then can go take o level already (:

geog/ss better get A2 haha study like siao !

tmr go school for chem- remedial ,

thursday go school for science prac , after that stayover alan house

then after that continue study !

6 days from now o level start , 21 days from now is ascension to heaven hahaha !

today at science centre .. me aq samuel each bought one necklace made of some stones , then samuel one is some onyx stone which says it give him strength , aq one is some blue rock which gives him confidence then mine is bloodstone which give me energy or something haha .

haha they yesterday when we go sauna i left my shirt behind , then toady i left my slippers behind , dunno why keep forgetting things .. ): maybe should just forget everything hor , makes life better (:

oh yeah before i forget , don't know which cb in class who go back school study tell mr/sim that we every day go drinking and get ourself drunk , make until mrsim tell samuel REMIND us that 6 days left then say what go library study no use .

no point thinking of returning to the past . it's too late , can't go back in time , what's happened has already happened .

Baby you know that I miss you
I wanna get with you tonight but I cannot baby girl
And that's the issue
Girl you know I miss you
I just wanna kiss you
But I can't right now so baby kiss me through the phone
(kiss me through the phone)
I'll see you later on
Kiss me through the phone
(kiss me through the phone)
See you when I get home

爱＊转角

2009-10-16T20:57:00.010+08:00

2009年10月16日，晴，第41天

phewww .. just reached home .

ytd afternoon go sim lim sq . that area walk walk with yw and aq , then walk to iluma meet ah mel , cindy tomy alan . then we watch movie pandorum ha ha , so complicated . after tt walk to plazasing take 174 all the way to jp , slack a while till 12plus thr then went back alan house le . ha ha whole night playing PSP then alan melvin playing dota . sleep about 5 plus then wake up 2 plus today after that study a bit then come home le !

kk got some thoughts in my mind le ...

YEAHH i'm out of school already finally after 10 years ! Fk yeah !

the previous posts in my blog , i do type " i wanna get out of school fast " - March , now i'm out of school alr ! fmss , fmps all gone hahaha yeah !

thinking back, i was really too naive and childish last time huh ha ha

this year since after the june holidays it seemed like a roller coaster ride with a bit of pandorum , but glad i'm through , now left the final part then this kind of life is over ! (:

now i can't even be bothered about the bad things i've done and the bad things i'm doing or the bad effects of marlboro or what . who cares ? life is meant for me to enjoy what.

goin' down buy marlboro le otherwise can't live past tomorrow ` heh can't believe i even gave a shit

a little something from 3/4 years ago :

"They say that if you love someone,

You should let them go.
But they did not say what to do
When they don’t come back."

原来晴天是这样的。

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潘玮柏 & Akon - Be With You

And no one knows
Why I’m into you
Cause you'll never know
what its like to walk in our shoes
没人会懂是我们的梦
懂再多困难只要牵手就变得不同
That’s why we'll break through

And I don’t care what they say
I’m gonna be with you

我不在乎怎么做
I’m gonna be with you

I wanna be with you

2009-10-13T09:11:00.003+08:00

2009年10月13日，晴，第38天

zzz i don't know whether i should go school later to meet ms goh for english , when i don't even know if the timing's right a not . :/

ytd whole day study study with alan aq and samuel , later going jurong again ha ha hopefully today can find seat . then when bored already go science centre sit the emulator !

hmmm ...... dunhill or marlboro to last me today ?

______

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

study break

2009-10-11T17:11:00.004+08:00

2009年10月11日，晴，第37天

yesterday was .....

ok i skip everything until fun started at night ..

so met the class at jp , took bus some where deep inside jurong , went up dian house to eat , went down to the playground for some games .

then go alan house drink raspberry vodka pure ontherock -.-

was spinning 30 mins after we drank until this morning , now just some headache ha ha .

anyway 4c rocks ha ha i'm gonna miss this class ):

mr sim is best form teacher geog teacher ever ha ha but too bad no enhanced reliability cause i'm his form class student hehe

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The Sunstreak - Here i go again .

And here I go again, Struggling the same way I did before. Stuck at the same dead end But finding that I'm liking it here more and more. It's so repetitive- All the words that spill out of my tongue. I hope that you don't mind. I sing it all the time. It's always on my mind, But I can't seem to find another way. And all I ever want and all I ever need is you. In the shadow of the doubt, you always seem to pull me through. But my words are growing old and all I need to do, Is find a new way to say "I love you." We spent so many nights trying hard to fix what wasn't right. But it was only time, and time away is time spent on the run. I never doubted you, I just couldn't seem to find my way. But I was crumbling. My words were stumbling. The truth was humbling. And all it took was just one more chance to say

2009-10-08T21:11:00.002+08:00

tmr last day of actual - school already !

...

i don't know why when school ending already so much trouble coming to me

2009-10-06T22:44:00.002+08:00

2009年10月6日，雨，第31天

ha ha just got back my report book today , k la not that bad , 23 L1R4 , just gotta make both my math and science from f9 to about a2 - b4 .

so tired .. tmr come back edit this post !

我能感受他比我适合

爱放了手我伪装冷漠比你先说分手

请原谅我原谅我不成熟
不爱你是藉口好让你离开我

原谅我必须假装爱错
别让时间逗留我怕说不出口

tennis

2009-10-04T21:41:00.002+08:00

if you think trying to do those little things with him behind my back and hoping i'd know, forget it .

if you think he is the right decision for you then go ahead .

just don't come back to me crying cause you have already made the wrong decision at the start .

if only you'd understand

if only dreams come true ..

woah just play tennis today after 4 years nv play le ..

hand pain he he he

time to say goodbye

2009-10-02T21:28:00.005+08:00

2009年10月2日，云，第26天

so the thoughts started with small chat with kenneth lum after school around dover -

k - stop smoking lah

me - u tried it before what , & u know it's difficult

k - can one lah

me - the difference is cause you got kathleen , she tell u stop , of course u can stop . she tell u don't do , of course you don't do , but we don't have that "person" there with us mah

k - zzz

k this topic can leave alan out since his the new target the krystal girl also is smoker

then the thoughts continued yesterday @harbourfront

so it was aquila birthday , the usual ones were there , christina was there too .

she dont like aq to smoke ..

so after the movie it was puffing time , so aq didn't do it of course .

will the day that they will finally be together , be the day that aq can stop all the bad stuff ?

the problem really is not about tobacco only .. it's that ... "go school waste time , study for what, rules are meant to be broken" , then walking out of the backgate is always in our minds , like we skipped free period today for 1hour of freedom , rather than 1hour of study .. ):

mr.sim emphasized to me say " u must have the will power ! don't follow what others tell you to do ."

honestly speaking , its impossible . not gonna explain why .

stupid lor , now got people look down on us liao lor .

i don't even know why i bother opening my eyes in the morning to see this grey world

why bother thinking about these stuff even ..

dreamBig , be somebody - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1k08yxu57NA

一切只是一场意外

—

只希望你永远幸福快乐

希望你忘记我

con te partiro

2009-10-01T15:09:00.003+08:00

我只希望你能永远的开心，快乐

就算给你幸福的人不是我。

2009-09-28T22:23:00.002+08:00

Somewhere over the rainbow
Skies are blue,
And the dreams that you dare to dream
Really do come true.

Somewhere over the rainbow
Bluebirds fly.
Birds fly over the rainbow.
Why then, oh why can't I?

what lies behind the rainbow ?

2009-09-26T22:29:00.006+08:00

2009年9月26日，晴，第20天

just reached home , then i lost my mind again just because my mother nag at me to do work ):

what is happening ?

ha ha today quite .. weird lah . last night was dota-ing to 3+ am with rabbit beside me , then this afternoon as usual tuition at orchardplaza . then aq decided to come orchard walk walk , since i also need to go ionzara collect my pants . so i was suppose to wait at orchardplaza but after my tuition ended , aq was just leaving his house . too boring already to sit there 1/2 hour so i went up cuppage see see , then jonathan was there doing duty , so chat chat for 15 mins like that then he ask me go inside the place see see , then was ushered to sit beside pheoebe ha ha then see them sing 5-10 mins then aq called so i was gone ! so walk all the way down to ion , walked to dior , d&g , LV , prada , zara , then see see frankMuller . and so i have added some stuff to my to-buy-list .

today badmood so is like smoking frenzy or smth , finish up about 17 sticks ):

so anyway just went to check out self-assembled PC and i came up with a list of parts total cost of $1073. thats first in to-buy-list .

second in to-buy-list is one D&G little bag saw today , about $560 ..

the rest is just random zara stuff bah .

i think that if happiness existed , it would be in pieces&fragments in my life because i broke it

later see if i can study Geography until 12 plus or 1 plus ;

_ _ _ _ _

when will i be happier ,

what is missing ?

why did things turn out this way ?

why can't i go back to the happy memories ?

what i did wrong , irreversible . sorry -

someone save me

juliet take me somewhere we can be alone (:

today, first time in my life that aquila could see that i was 闷闷不乐 .

_ _ _ _ _

看见爱情向我大声吵痛

i'm sorry i can't be perfect

2009-09-24T22:12:00.002+08:00

2009年9月24日，晴，第18天

blogging quite a lot this three days or so ...

maybe cause it is to release all the stress accumulated from SSS .

i feel that something's missing , something really important but i just don't know what ):

i dont know why but just really bad bad temper bad mood everything's bad . these few days , my father or mother or auntie nag at me or something like that then i get really angry then straightaway " SHUT UP 闭嘴！" without thinking , then if they continue then it gets heated then quarrel . . ): it's not like i hate them or what i'm just feel lost or there's something missing ?

don't feel like go home tomorrow , ijustwanna find somewhere quiet at night so i can let my mind rest ..

hmm i stopped thinking of returning back to the past cause it's too late it's impossible.

不见的是什么？能不能找得到？

－－－－－

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing last forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

.

2009-09-23T20:42:00.001+08:00

没有常在心的日子，第957天，阴天

原来当你真的很喜欢一个人，你就会想很多无聊的事情。今天中午吃饭盒的时候，我突然想起，如果我和常在心终有一天可以在一起，不知道我们的命运会怎么样呢？将来会是我比常在心早死，还是常在心比我早死。如果先走的那个是我，我知道常在心不伤心是不可能的，留在世上那个一定回很难过，但我希望她只会伤心三个月就够了。哭有时，笑有时，欢乐有时，悲伤有时。希望到时候常在心会明白，会做的到。
大家都说童年是一生中最开心的时候，但我的童年就一点也不开心。有一次老天突然下雨，我永远都会记得那一天，因为下的鱼竟然是彩色的，我从来没有那么开心过。原来上天是会特别眷顾一些不开心的小孩子，它下了彩色的雨来逗我笑，令我的童年也有一些开心的回忆。每次我想到，将来可能会比常在心早死，光是想想我都觉得很舍不得，我舍不得她伤心，舍不得她哭，我担心她失去我之后，就会觉得人生完全没有目标。但是如果常在心真的可以放在哀伤，很坚强的生活下去，到时候无论我在哪里，相信我也会开心得流眼泪，而这些眼泪掉下来，就会变成彩色的雨，哄常在心笑。

final post from Alfred before he died ...

_____

O saddd i'm crying ):

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SimplePlan-Perfect

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
Can't pretend that I'm all right
and you can't change me
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing last forever
I'm sorry I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be perfect

溏心风暴

2009-09-22T22:33:00.005+08:00

没有常在心的日子，第863，雨

糟了已经是深夜三点了,还没有想到什么方法可以帮常在心打赢这场官司. 我忽然想起那天,在撞车的那条马路上, 常在心看着我的眼神. 她还是爱我的. 不如你鼓起勇气跟她说对不起, 她会原谅你的. 这样吧,交给天决定. 如果明天还下雨的话, 我就去跟她表白.

－haha alfred's blog in 溏心风暴

－－－－

眼前无路心中有数
何必继续漫步
你该拥有更轻易的幸福
谈恋爱不是追逐难度

－－－－

2009年9月22日，晴，第16天

haha today not that bad , there was S2E after school till 5.30pm , was still quite okay , and first time i ownselft went to mrs-lyann to ask how to do literature question haha learnt a lot ! after that slack a bit bah .

anyway , omgggg yesterday me and aq just discovered TAYLOR SWIFT >.< , then saw her MV on the "Love Story" .. omg looks like an angel ! $#%@&&**( !!! maybe buy her album hehe (:

hmm , i think i've been happy a lot recently huh since i got past bad mood days (: mayb it's time to get over some little things !

hmm better sleep early today there's PE tmr i wanna play soccer !

TaylorSwift - Teardrops on my Guitar

He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be

- actually hor .. my guitar only got lots of dust collecting on it ):

58

2009-09-21T20:43:00.005+08:00

2009年9月21日，雨，第15天

前几天过的还好。
O level 就快来了，这几天能读书就读了（：

我真的真的真的很想回到过去，挽回我所失去的一却，失去的时间。可是已经太迟了。只好背叛自己了。

到底是我错过了，

还是我错了？

希望做的决定是对的。（：

刚刚买了我的ZARA裤子（jeans) $70 ，心痛！哈哈想买的东西只剩下几件了！

——

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

iGOTTAFEELINGTONIGHT'sGONNABEAGOODNIGHT

2009-09-17T22:37:00.003+08:00

hmmm
i think these 2 or 3 days my mood quite quite badd ):
cannot go on like this later make myself angry make other people angry too .

mmm
25 points L1R4 die already haha but i don't want to go cut grass or join greenfrog or sembwaste next time like aquila said leh hahahaha ! must study already ha ha but today didn't even have mood to re-do the prelim paper 2 .

i think i can cut down from 25 points to about 17 i happy already since now i have to bring both math and science up to b3 or b4 then can get 16 like that already then here and there cut a few points then can 16 points then can go SingaporePoly already haha if not ngeeann . worse come to worst is republic poly lo .. ):

tmr i better talk more smile more hahaha .. don't know if staying back in school studying haha .. hmm k in another 1hr15 mins means left 38 days left , then tmr got quite a few hours to study then saturday got party so cannot then still got sunday then the entire monday cause of school holiday .. just hope don't end up playing mahjong hahahaha ... HU !

what else to say leh besides academically ..... oh shit tmr must pay money for class tshirt , but then i no money lei hahaha and my name on the tshirt type wrongly sia ):

hmm i wonder what will fate decide for me huh .. (:

______

I gotta a feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good night
That tonight's gonna be a good good night (repeat)

Tonight's the night night
Let's live it up
I got my money
Let's spend it up

even if the sky is falling down

2009-09-14T22:29:00.002+08:00

zomgwtfbbq ! haha

bloddy crazy we just had 5 hours of mahjong after school today
0.o

luckily my results nott thattt badd only failed math (:
tmr there will be addition to the "fail" - Science
____

So baby don’t worry, you are my only,
You won’t be lonely, even if the sky is falling down,
You’ll be my only, no need to worry,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Baby are you down down down down down,
Down, Down,
Even if the sky is falling down,

2009-09-12T11:58:00.001+08:00

so it has been 1 week of holidays alr ...
amount of time i have put in to study : less than 5 hours (sounds like i'm heading for hell huh ..)
amount of time playing mahjong : i lost count

anyway ,
nowadays , i keep looking into the sky and wonder what fate has in place for me .
then i will notice that my world is not only black and white , it is grey too .
no wonder i have never seen the rainbow or seen 晴天 ,
and i guess i will never be able to see them too . ):

really don't feel like going back to school ha ha , either that or im hoping for study break to come faster , then i'll be happy .

o anyway my brother just found this white rabbit abandoned somewhere near my house and we kind of adopted it ha ha its really cute and it don't pee or shit all over the house , so he doesn't need a cage too , but sadly it like to bite me a lot ):
thats why thinking of this , sometimes i wish i was an animal , then i will have no worries or what ever and probably i can see colours ?

sian tomorrow last day of holiday alr , and argh so angry arsenal lost to manc. city !

hopefully things will get better someday (:
hm i was too naive last time to believe that someone would care for me huh
很后悔那时我太天真了，竟然相信会有一个人能关心我，想我，陪我。

haha i want to climb up to the ceiling to look at the starsz but too bad this is HDB i cant do that ):

if there is 1 thing i can wish for right now , i want to see the rainbow because it is what lights up my life then everything will start to pick up , im sure ^^ bt im not seeing it so too badd
arg so pekchek alr im going to sleep , tmr must remember to buy some carlsberg
____
周杰伦
:屋顶

(男 )半夜睡不着觉把心情哼成歌
只好到屋顶找另一个梦境
(女) 睡梦中被敲醒我还是不确定
怎曾有动人弦律在对面的屋顶
我悄悄关上门带着希望上去
原来是我梦里常出现的那个人
(男 )那个人不就是我梦里
那模糊的人我们有同样的默契
(女) 用天线(合)用天线排成爱你的形状

(女) 在屋顶唱着你的歌
(男) 在屋顶和我爱的人
(女) 将泛黄的的夜献给 (合) 最孤独的月
拥抱这时刻这一分一秒全都停止
(男) 爱开始纠结 (合) 梦有你而美

2009-09-10T10:48:00.001+08:00

waahahaha

G-Force 3-D very nice hahahahahaha just watched yesterday at vivo

then play mahjong 3 rounds only lost $2.40 i think ..

later i'm going to win it all back heheehe

2009-09-06T20:00:00.000+08:00

wooohh
@_@

4 cans

and

1 packet

im spinning ~~ @_@

2009-09-01T22:26:00.004+08:00

sometimes i wonder when i will b able to listen to certain songs and feel happy ):

周杰伦；

简单爱

说不上为什么
我变得很主动
若爱上一个人
什么都会值得去做
我想大声宣佈
对你依依不舍
连隔壁邻居都猜到
我现在的感受
河边的风
在吹着头发飘动
牵着你的手
一阵莫名感动
我想带你
回我的外婆家
一起看着日落
一直到我们都睡着
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱能不能够永远单纯没有悲哀
我想带你骑单车
我想和你看棒球
想这样没担忧
唱着歌一直走
我想就这样牵着你的手不放开
爱可不可以简简单单没有伤害
你靠着我的肩膀
你在我胸口睡着
像这样的生活
我爱你你爱我
想简!简!单!单! 爱...
想简!简!单!单! 爱

-Download 简单爱 320kbps 10.3MB
http://www.mediafire.com/download.php?matjmimiaej

):

2009-08-30T21:46:00.002+08:00

Hmm , now waiting for my DotA to re-install , thanks to version 1.24 ..

soo bored . anyway today just bought present for mr.sim , gonna give him tomorrow (:

nowadays i'm saving up already , to complete my shopping list ha ha . can't wait till i get everything !

this list according to priority (descending) :

- Topman sling-bag $60

- ZARA jeans $70

- ZARA t-shirt $50

- any random slippers $40

- new gaming computer for after o-level use $1400

Right now i havev saved about $50 , so i guess i'm going to get my bag next week !

& today i got study leh ! 4 hours sia ! hhahahahahaha (:

-

2009-08-25T22:13:00.001+08:00

不是我错过了，

而

是我错了
___

没有
不能说的秘密。了。

abc.fate

2009-08-24T00:34:00.003+08:00

23/8.

hmm . today nothing much le .. want to play DotA also cannot thanks to stupid patch ):

hmm nvm lets type out some thoughts bah .

" 你相信缘分吗？” - " Do you believe in Fate ? "

some people will say " i believe that i can change my fate " , i don't even know what others may say

but i believe in Fate & that i cannot change it .

if not for fate ,
i wont be in singapore ,
i wont be in fmss
i wont be in 4c
i wont know everyone
everyone wont know me

& why i believe that i cannot change it ?
because the story is already written .
my life story.
the ending is already written and no matter what i do , what happens is whats written by Fate for my life .
if i was destined to go through these things in my life , then i will go through them .
if i was destined to fall deeper and deeper into this hole and never to climb back up , then i wont .
because everything is destined .

and i hope that someday you will understand that it's too late to change certain things .

Maybe Fate meant for it to turn out this way (:

---------------------

iON ORCHARD

2009-08-22T22:26:00.004+08:00

22/8.
hmm for past few days :

- i'm not retaking 'o' level chinese any more after 张老师 psycho me like siao

- almost everyday stay back play soccer

- yesterday mervyn accidentally cut my neck with penknife haha

- most of prelims over , left some bits&pieces

- v happy that i use finish 5 pieces of the exam foolscap paper on lit. paper 2

- overnight DotA

Today , SATURDAY 22/8

as usual go tuition
then after that meet aquila yuwei and alan at iON orchard
first we eat at the food court , 1 bowl of curry noodle $5.50 , 1 can of cokacola $1.80 ...
then go to Zara , buy one t-shirt , then saw this jeans , super nice ! i'm gonna start saving for it (:

after that the funny part already ha ha ha
we walk past the " SALVATORE FERRAGAMO " shop , then i tell aquila tt this brand is super expensive , then as usual we 2 really boliao , decided to see see around the store .
but then the items there don't have price tag , so he say lets 'act' then go ask for price tag .
so we walk next to this staff of the shop then aquila loudly ask me "ehh this bag 很漂亮 (very pretty) leh!" ， then i also 'act' then i said "ya lor your mother surely like it if u buy it for her for birthday"
then he ask her for the price , SGD $2,700 .
so we walk out of the shop already , after see a bag that looks like it only cost 200 dollars at most .

WAIT THE STORY ONLY BEGINNING -

so continue walk walk , then we walk past Cartier .
so as usual i tell him tt this shop is super expensive , even more expensive than the salvatore ferragamo .
at tt time when i thought it was " more expensive " , i thought only about SGD $5000 .
so again we nothing to do then walk in the shop
as expected the watches all shiny shiny bling bling with many many diamond and gold , but no price tag .
then i saw this watch lying in the middle of many other bling bling watches . this one was special .
it was Green and gold colour , but it still looks different from the rest . i was thinking maybe that one SGD $4000 or something like that since got less diamond than the others .
then we start acting again : (we made sure the staff woman heard everything)

iy : this one not bad lei !

aq : eh ya lor green colour one

iy : take out and see lor

aq: ermm excuse me miss , can i look at this watch ?

shop staff: ok (: - then she wear gloves and took this spongy plate then took out the watch and carefully gently put on aq hand .

aq : woah 不错 lei ! quite special !

iy : ya , if u buy for uncle he surely will like

aq : ok.
aq : 这个的价钱多少？ (ermm whats the price for this watch ?)

shop staff : -take out one tag from under the table- , then CLEARLY said " 九万六千（ninety-six thousand dollars) "

aq : (he continue to act but his hand shivering when he holding the watch) eh 还 OK lei !

iy : (i also continue to act) aiya our budget only five thousand dollar la !

we both : thank you bye bye ! (:

---

wtf ? 96k for one watch ?
different people lead different lives ha ha
omg ..
anyway after that went above plazaSing to play LAN already.

hmm i see if i have any thoughts can post here tomorrow ha ha i wanna type many many words just like writing literature exam ! (:

2009-08-20T03:59:00.002+08:00

O M G ):

B 4 for Chinese ...

T_T

now i have 1 more subject at year end .. ):

and i don't care i'm getting A1 chinese at year end , i don't care !

just now stay in school for a while then got really bored so went to ruth's birthday ha ha ,
then the dog ha ha it wet my shoe by licking licking they try to steal mashed potato (:

hmm tomorrow is english oral , as well as register for retake chinese ):

11/8

2009-08-15T01:21:00.002+08:00

我给你的爱写在西元前
_ _ _ _ _

ha ha , so many things have been happening ..
but i think i better focus on prelims first (:
hmm so tired , long day ahead tomorrow .
hohoho cannot wait to go Zara then go buy new watch ha ha !

_ _ _ _ _

一切
碎了。

Secret

2009-08-10T12:14:00.002+08:00

Time and time again ,
He (fate) brought us together then took us apart .
At the ending , he gave us a chance ,
but none of us took it .

Why do you always make fun of me ?

Because you and her ,
never meant to be.

不能说的.秘密

我拼命奔跑
沿着彩虹坠落的轨道
我拼命寻找
以为这样就可以找得到
传说的幸福存不存在
结果不重要

i guess it's not happening ..

...

2009-08-04T19:37:00.002+08:00

hehehe

haven't go school for almost a week already ,

i wonder who still recognizes my existence , ha ha ha (:

don't feel like going back school lei ... but my mc is ending soon already ... seems that i missed out on a lot of fun huh , ha ha

ha ha every day at home read newspaper , do some work , then Fifa09 all the way already :/

see when i'm feeling like it then i'll go back to school bah ..

what will happen tomorrow ? (:

i think better wake up already , i just felt how close the o levels are ! a small little 80 days or so ...

thats not funn ... hmm try to put in like 2 hours everyday to study lo ... (: he he

hope i never miss much things when i'm back in school ):

____________

晴天，

是能把你放下的那天

还是

和你一起看彩虹的那天？

爱应该不是属于我的吧。

^%^#

2009-07-29T22:08:00.002+08:00

waaaaaaaa ):

sore throat + runny nose + cough

screwed up .

T_T

13\0

2009-07-26T21:46:00.002+08:00

i'm not going to pick up the shattered pieces .

i give up .

the secret will remain as a secret never to be told.

rainbow

2009-07-25T11:20:00.004+08:00

我掉进爱情悬崖　

i fell into the cliff

跌太深爬不出来

fell too deep , now i can't climb out

下降的速度太快

fell too fast

来不及踏上未来

and now i am unable to step into the Future.

回想起妳的可爱

thinking back of the past

傻傻的还在等待　

stupidly waiting

以为妳还会回来　

thinking that you will come back someday

妳的脸慢慢离开

you slowly left

时间快将我掩埋　

and time is slowly drowning me

消失的太快　我负荷不来

everything is disappearing too fast , i can't keep up

黄立行 - 彩虹的轨道

我拼命奔跑

沿着彩虹坠落的轨道
我拼命寻找
以为这样就可以找得到
传说的幸福存不存在
已不重要
我还在奔跑努力的跑
或许有一天会让我找得到
彩虹的脚
相信那里不再有问号

(someday i will find the rainbow)

everything was an accident

2009-07-23T23:03:00.013+08:00

doing D & T now .. until 5 am ? or till school start tmr ? i dunno :(

anyway some how i suddenly feel f**ked up .

then theres the stupid school , waste my time , everyday 12 people go only , then mr sim dont want to give me LOA form ! want to skip also cannot , later he angry . wtf ?

arghh

i don't get it

why can't i get out ?

why can't i run away ?

why don't i see 晴天？

why is everything like that ?

is whoever decides my Fate out to make fun of me ?

is it going to end like that ?

or has it ended ?

is there no way out ?

no U-turn ?

i have found out the root of all my problems.

it is something that is somewhere inside everyone,

except me.

it is Love.

i don't even have to look for it.

because somehow it does not exist anywhere in my world.

冷咖啡离开了杯垫
我忍住的情绪在很后面
拼命想挽回的从前
在我脸上依旧清晰可见
最美的不是下雨天
是曾与你们的演唱回忆
回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变已错过的时间
你用你的指尖阻止说我再见
想象你在身边在完全失去之前
你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落后才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡?

The secret ,

remains as a secret .

Cliff

2009-07-19T21:31:00.001+08:00

我掉进爱情悬崖

i fell into the cliff of love
回想起妳的可爱

傻傻的还在等待　

以为妳还会回来　

妳的脸慢慢离开

时间快将我掩埋　

消失的太快　我负荷不来

我不配

2009-07-17T23:44:00.008+08:00

沉默的瞬间

有谁会在乎

is there anyone that cares ?

有谁会想念

is there anyone that thinks about me ?
有谁能看穿我的笑脸 ?

is there anyone that can see through my smile ?

is there anyone

i leave it to the

rainbow

有谁能看穿我的笑脸?

2009-07-16T22:32:00.003+08:00

boring...

或许，

把爱渐渐放下会走更远

是对的。

或许，

命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天

maybe fate only arranged for us to meet.

__________

kk , FML picks of the day

"Today, my boyfriend of a year broke up with me because "god told him to." What god didn't tell him was that I would check his e-mail and find all the e-mails to and from his new girlfriend. FML"

"Today, I learned that walking on the sidewalk does not mean that you will not be hit by a car. FML"

"Today, I was hit by a car. My sister ran to see if her phone I was carrying in my purse was okay. She screamed at me while I lay in the street because I was so dumb, and that I couldn't even watch for cars. Her screen was cracked. I had to call 911 for myself. FML"

f a i l

2009-07-12T22:10:00.012+08:00

14/7 有缘无分

today i quite lucky ! ha ha ha (:

morning nv go and find alan aquila at dover , then end up they got caught ha ha . heng ah !

v. tired today , first time can sleep at yw house for so long . it was totally knock-out . until some idiot come and slap my stomach :(

我睁开双眼看着空白

忘记你对我的期待

我原谅不了我

就请你当作我已不在

13/7

today went to school , then signed out after recess . anyway , ikmal told me that during some teacher meeting or what , got teachers said that i will fail or something like that . i bet it is mrquek !

what ever haha i am going to prove those f***ers that said that wrong , and prove myself wrong too (:

but must plan first ... hmm .. i wonder where to start .. math ? haha

12/7

meh .

tomorrow school open le , i not going to post for quite some time lo , got to rush tuition homework everyday ha ha .

today was interesting day ! morning i go tuition from 8.30pm till 2.30pm . tiring !

then when i came back ... i saw this black box on the table . it was labelled " iPhone 3G S "

woahh hahaha my brother bought it (:

nevermind i just played with it a while. quite nice la , but not planning to get one haha . will not be of use to me .

then after that go play bball with edric jm alan aq yw , then go queensway lan .

______

i can see our ending .

可能我太天真了，相信老天爷会给我多一次的机会。

______

回忆的画面
在荡着秋千梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
又何必去改变已错过的时间
你用你的指尖阻止我说再见
想像你在身边才完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐放下会走更远
或许命运的签只让我们遇见
只让我们相恋这一季的秋天
飘落後才发现这幸福的碎片
要我怎么捡？

^^

2009-07-11T23:17:00.005+08:00

lol lol lets stop the -emo posts . (:

check this out hahaha

From F***MyLife

" Today, it was my girlfriends birthday. To surprise her, I told her that I was going away on business, and could not be there on her birthday. When I show up at her house to surprise her with a present and cake, she opens the door in her underwear, beside a man in his boxers. She was surprised. FML "

this one more funny

" Today, I was involved in a car accident. I wasn't the driver of either car. I happened to be a passerby that was hit by a falling stop sign as a car hit it. FML "

" Today, I logged onto facebook, and saw that one of my friends had just listed herself as in a relationship. I was happy for her, so I clicked the "like" button. Then I went to her page to see who her new boyfriend was. It was my boyfriend. FML "

lol for more of these bs go to "http://www.fmylife.com/"

really crap .

hehe today got tuition , then after that play bball with usual ppl haha (:

:(

2009-07-08T22:04:00.002+08:00

nothing is going the right way for me ..

today just recieved another yellow(or golden , i forgot) form for playing basketball during P.E . Sounds like crap ? .... zzz

then , got D & T . my artifact just left a bit , but omg the presentation board and portfolio .. loads and loads of work ..

then mr.sim go and change the classroom seating arrangement , now im like so near the board . the previous seat was very nice haha , but nevermind since all the people from the prev. group all seperated to the different corners already .

then this friday there is chinese O level .

then everything on Tagged is not working out . (hahahaha)

tomorrow if i have more time i post some of my thoughts :)

life is fragile

2009-06-28T01:02:00.005+08:00

hais ...

this world is cruel .

我们要珍惜人身，

虽然一点都不完美。

而我只能等待新的开始，

等待你的出现,

等待晴天。

我问天

2009-06-23T23:21:00.005+08:00

these few days ...

can say pretty bad :(

anyway today i have thoughts to share , in fact a lot .

remember some previous posts , i keep typing i want to be good boy good boy , end up all of it was bull shit . have i changed ? no .

well anyway now my family kind of knows about this bad bad habit of mine , but they just haven't caught me red-handed . but this really bad . my brother keeps telling me " you can do anything you want except 1. smoke 2. drugs 3. glue " . (phewww i can drink ! nvm actually all along can)

thats why i've decided on quitting . slowly slowly .

from 10 sticks a day

to 6

to 4

to 2

to 1

to 2 a week

to 1 a week

till i'm done with tobacco :)

it may be difficult but i believe i can do it !

i controlled myself today , and i only took 1 stick . :)

but but but somehow there is this ...

like there is no inspiration for me to quit .

i want to ..

i don't know ,

i'm confused .

some one tell me what to do ?

because there doesn't seem to be anybody under the stars that cares for me .

hmm let's talk about the happy stuff ..

yesterday there was bbq , which me and alan did stupid things , zzz

then today ... aq and yw came to play , ps3 , etc.

hahaha yay i'm going for overnight LAN on friday night with them , hopefully that time i can forget about all the unhappy stuff and have fun before school starts !

这世界里，有没有真正的幸福？

为什么我拼命寻找，

却找不到？

__________

风也真生气雨也真生气

气我哪会无志气
爱也消失去情搁来哒缠
想你想你不知有啥意义
四界底探～听叨位有你的消息
我的感情乎你绑甲死死

我问天我问天甘会冻麦崇治
搁再爱你折磨是我家己
我问天我问天甘会冻麦崇治
想要放袂记我不知不觉醉十年

窗外的雨甘讲是男人的泪
不愿面对现实梦中醉十年

iYYYY

2009-06-16T22:42:00.003+08:00

Yay ! I found back my old Walkman and i sync-ed it already :)

Anyway i feel like i am changing a bit , because recently i have been listening to some angmoh(english) songs !

even though most of the lyrics totally no meaning ..

only this one got :

"I'll take a train that travels far

That takes me near to where you are. "

ha ha ha ha p-p-p-p-oker face ! :)

Kk i hope tomorrow will be a better day !

______________________________

OH MY GOD 我越来越爱

用力爱天都塌下来

爱若是你给的天灾我要被害

无神论

2009-06-12T23:03:00.003+08:00

I want to believe in all the miracles too

I want to believe in all the the fairy tales with you

I want the happy ever after, Really I do

But how can that be when I don't know if heaven is true

But there is no eternity, for an atheist like me

When I die is that the end, no other way in

I'll never see your face again

无神论

human life is so fragile .

and i only live once .

yet i am still

such a failure .

Why me ？

2009-06-11T21:45:00.005+08:00

让

我

｀

在

下

个

转角

＊

遇

到

爱

。

这世界没别的女人了吗？

2009-06-09T22:28:00.003+08:00

Ok today was much much better.

Anyway i think i don't want to type about what happened in the day . who wants to know anyway?

i just know i did something really good today and i am really happy :)

i see other people , they have long - long posts and i want to try one too !

so actually it's really about thoughts , thoughts & thoughts .

some weird thoughts i had :

- i thought i could sing like as jay chou

- i thought i could play like michael jordan

- i thought i can play soccer like ronaldinho

some naive thoughts i had :

- i thought i was someone special. someone who was different from the rest. but turns out i'm the same or worse off

- i thought i could like just run into love

- i thought s2e or sss or ShitShitShit or Shitcube or S^3 is bullshit. ( but it really is )

some good thoughts i had :

- i thought of trying to be punctual for something

- i thought of being good boy

- i thought of REALLY studying for A's

But hor , what i really thought of is " What is life ? "

- regret ?

- sadness ?

- hurt ?

okok , there were definitely happy times .

other than that i don't find anything else about life .

except the fact that it ends someday and it is just a matter of time (sooner or later) .

so what if a person has diseases or whatever ? so what if you are healthy ?

you are going to die anyway. we are all going to die anyway .

then there is another phrase : " Live life to the fullest "

there are many interpretations for this.

- just have fun everyday ( applies to me )

- study , get As , university , earn money lots of money $$$$$

- just wasting your time

but i think the most stupid i've ever done to life so far is playing maplestory for 2 years and then thinking that i am happy and i am living life to the fullest. yeah yeah my character level 100+++ so what , look , now i don't even touch maplestory anymore. stupid stupid.

i talk so much already , but i still don't have an idea about life or why am i living in this stupid world .

maybe there is something in this world i have yet to find ..

for now, jay chou rocks ha ha

so does my articuno and zapdos .

tmr sucks .

bad day bad day :/

____

无神论

黄立行

我希望今后都能快乐, 永不分离

但我上不去天堂, 我不能够陪你

不存在一种永恒

不相信世界有神

死亡是不是终点, 会停止想念

不能再亲吻你的脸, 不管我有多怀念

给我一个机会

2009-06-08T22:26:00.002+08:00

bad day bad day .

i am lazy to explain what happened .

but , here's what i think :

——————————————————

我只剩下最后一次的机会了，

如果再闯祸的话，

我就得流浪街头了。

好希望能给我自己多一次机会。

if i create trouble again and my parents find out , i'm going to be sleeping on the streets.

but i'm left with one last chance,

just this one chance .

轨迹

2009-06-07T10:04:00.004+08:00

我会发着呆然后忘记你

i will stare in the sky and forget you

　　接着紧紧闭上眼

then i shut my eyes tightly

___________________

我已经相信有些人我永远不必等

2009-06-04T21:54:00.003+08:00

xuan - xuan

lost !

: (

thanks for your comments :)

but i still don't know .

因为我不知道幸福在哪里。

是我不对，

一些些应该体贴的感觉我没给。

搁浅

2009-06-02T22:45:00.003+08:00

these 2 days , very interesting !

i only remember yesterday was 'o'levels chinese , then after that went vivo eat .

today was more interesting haha . morning went school , aft that go home , then go kbox until 3 , then reach onemarinaboulevard at 4.30 ? went in the auditorium for 15 mins and then the lecturer said " we have come to the end of our session , anyone has questions ? " .

went down to geylang aft that , ate a bit , then bus down to farrer , hanabi to celebrate kingJM birthday .

tiring tiring , tmr still got to fly to ang moh kio :(

how on earth do i get there ?!

_____________________

我已经相信有些人我永远不必等
所以我明白在灯火栏珊处
为什么会哭
你不会相信
嫁给我明天有多幸福
只想你明白
我心甘情愿爱爱爱爱到要吐
那是醉生梦死才能熬成的苦
爱如潮水
我忘了我是谁
至少还有你哭

如果我变成回忆 ?

2009-05-31T21:43:00.003+08:00

tomorrow is 'O' Level 华文 already !

time flies ! i remember 1/1/2009 . now its 31/5/2009. unbelievable.

i keep thinking of the past , i dream of going back into the past , but i can only face the future.

but every time i open my eyes , all i see is grey . this world is grey . ):

what will add colour to my life ?

tell me , please ?

__________________________________

我只会变成你的回忆。

灰

2009-05-26T16:55:00.010+08:00

aiyo , got scolded by alvin sim like ^@$%# ):

can't wait for chinese 'o's to finish !

"jay chou help me pass my chinese " :)

我有想过要改过自新，想过做一个好学生，想过戒_

i thought of turning over , being a good student , quitting

可能吗？

but can i ?

告诉我，我应该如何做？

tell me , what should i do ?

也许我认命比较好吧。

probably resigning to fate would be better for me

我只能永远读着对白
读到我给你的伤害
我原谅不了我
就请你当作我已不在

我睁开双眼看着空白
忘记你对我的期待
读完了依赖
我很快就离开

(:

2009-05-23T10:30:00.004+08:00

hahaha :)

past few days were weird , but forgot what happened anyway .

yesterday .. was fun fun fun !

school in the morning as usual , then during PE had to run 2.4km , me and monkey ended up in Caltex station and bought 2 Pokka green tea for $1.95 , then ran back , but got caught by PE teacher anyway .

after school , didn't go for geography remedial . went home first , then came back out to meet monkey . at first i wanted to go to the MSND play , but i got psycho-ed by monkey to go to mervyn's party so ... i decided to go !

went to vivo , got some Topman shirts for present , then went to "the carbella" or some condo like that .

lots and lots of people there ! many sec- five people , several sec- four people (including head-councillor hahah!) , and a few sec 3 people . total got about 30 people ?

there was DJ there , catered food , and of course , Heineken and VODKA :(

hehehehe . ate first , then after that , someone opened the vodka so we got a cup each of about 30% vodka and 70% fruitpunch . felt very good , so got another cup . thats when my world started to spinnn. junming went crazy , monkey became red all over , i fell asleep on the chair . but we got okay after an hour or so .

then we play drinking-game among ourselves. we played scissors-paper-stone and chi-ko-pek and then loser had to drink like 1 sip of the pure Vodka. i lost 3 in a row :(

had lots of fun right till about 11pm when mervyn cut the cake. hahaha then monkey looked like a dying one , so take cab back home haha . !

________________

这感觉已经不对

我最后才了解

一页页不忍翻阅的情节

你好累你默背

为我掉过几次泪

多憔悴而我心碎你受罪

你的美,

我不配.

死亡是不是终点？

2009-05-19T22:22:00.002+08:00

有一些事，不是我能控制的。

some things , i cannot control

相信或不相信这些谎言，一切都由你。

whether you believe these lies, it's all up to you

我一直想逃避现实，但我也知道，

i've been trying to escape from reality , but i know

逃的了一时，逃不了一世

i can escape for a day or two , but not forever .

______________________________________

Well , anyway ,

today had school as usual , tried to sign out before Geography but failed anyway .

after school had basketball , the rest went home , then i came back to school to find out that the aircon in alvin sim's classroom was back !

no one else was in the classroom , so i turned the aircon on , got comfortable and slept from about 3.45 till ~5.40 .

went up to kitchen , saw the rest still cleaning , so chatted with carina and monique for very long . anyway found out lots of things .

but i am still confused.

i , tired . :(

i , go , sleep :/

_________________________________

断了的弦再弹一遍
我的世界你不在里面
我的指尖已经弹出血

什么？

2009-05-15T22:33:00.003+08:00

This week passed by very fast !

Anyway quite shocked i got 11/25 for Social Studies ! i wasted 15mins on doing one question wrongly and thought i was gone-case ! (:

Hmm tmr should be a good day . hopefully :)

_________

我搞不懂你到地在做什么。

我根本不懂你心里到地有没有我。

泪

2009-05-13T22:07:00.004+08:00

hahaha . i think my new schedule is working !

i'll watch tv from 7 to 8 , then i'll study from 8 to 10 pm , then computer till i'm tired !

haha at least now i can concentrate on studying . used to be on the computer all the time hahaha :)

_______

晴天何时才到？

为什么等不到？

—————

为什么命运会让我们遇见？

为什么命运会让我不知不觉地爱上你？

为什么命运不让我轻松地放开手？

为什么我这么迟才觉悟，你心里根本没有我？

为什么命运的签只让我们遇见？

为什么他偏偏要出现？

为什么放手这么难？

为什么就是等不到那晴天？

为什么？

有人回答我吗？！

————

(O.o )

晴天

2009-05-12T22:18:00.004+08:00

何时才能够看到晴天，彩虹？

放手吧。

————

bye .

大丈夫

2009-05-11T21:45:00.002+08:00

昨天，我看到彩虹，好美哦！

但，人身是不是这样完美的呢？

————————————————

O !

Today was super super super fun and tiring ! Hahahaha !

I intended to wake up at 10am but anyway chinaboy woke me up at 830am . so i did . reached harbourfront at about 10am , met them at yoshinoya , had some coffee . then met the class , waited for quite long , then went to vivo. we went arcade while the rest went to eat , i think.

then me and aq disappeared ! hahaha !

we got lost for quite long .. 2 hours ? we ate at macs first , then went to sentosa . but no one answered their phone so we sat at the cafe in siloso beach to drink coffee . but , omg , we each had a cup of coffee and the bill was $8.50 (incl. GST) !!

hahaha they found out the class was like at the end of the beach , so went there , then aq said boring , don't want to kick ball , so , went to cinderella castle walk walk haha -.-

then , go to SKYRIDE AND LUGE ! omg hahaha damn fun !

took the thing up to the hill , then took the LUGE down which was damn fun but i almost flew out of the damned thing hahahaha !

went back to the class , played soccer , then volleyball . tiring !

all went to vivo after that , ate , then we went our seperate ways .

hahaha me aq and chinaboy went to queen's close there to happy hour !

Ok ok , i'm tired :( going to sleep already :)

花蝴蝶

2009-05-09T22:25:00.003+08:00

或许命运的签只让我们遇见。

maybe , fate only arranged for us to meet . nothing else .

——————————————————————

天意

2009-05-08T22:38:00.005+08:00

" we have glanced at each other for 500 times in our previous lives ,

just for us to brush past each other in this life . "

但为什么是你？

———————————————————————————————————

Hahahahahaha !

Today midyearexams have ended !

exciting day today !

first in the morning, went to ghim moh to have breakfast with chinaboy aq and jc

then went to school . went to lecture theatre to assemble . hahahahaha damm funny ! aquila kept disturbing mrBryanTan by singing " CHAI XIAO WEII ~~~ " . hahahaha !

then after that was test . physics was ok , then chemistry i did a mistake but got over it eventually :)

then after school played basketball, very tiring !

went home , played a bit of ps3 , then my bro brought me to buy spectacles.

hahaha found a decent one for $150 . wanted to get the Dolce and Gabbana one ! nah just kidding :)

so came home , then called alan , he said they all at vivo already. hahaha but dammed tired so did not go, went to sleep instead.

nevermind ! next monday will be a 10am to 10pm outing day or later , but i'm just afraid can't wake up in time for tuesday school !

this weekend is going to be boring . tuition tomorrow and sunday . but i think i'm going to use the time to study for chinese. oLevels is coming in about 26 days !

_______________________________________________

我知道我们都没有错

we are not wrong
只是放手会比较好过

but we will be better off by letting go.

而我已经分不清

i don't know
你是友情

if you are a friendship
还是错过的爱情

or a lost love

Gre y.

2009-05-06T22:28:00.005+08:00

一天一天越来越无可救药一生一次爱你到无可救药

你每次对着我笑你的笑里面有毒药

可不可以不要？

Ahh okay . today finally finished the mye s . left science practical . :)

hmm they decided 10am to meet at harbourfront next monday ..

i , hahaha thats dammed early .

and what are we going to do there ? O.o

hahahhaa

maybe we will go to kBox . hehehehe

放晴的那一天

2009-05-05T16:07:00.005+08:00

还要多久我才能够在你身边
等到放弃的那天也许我会比较好一点

i will feel better the day i give up

从前从前有个人爱你很久

long ago someone used to love you for very long
但偏偏风渐渐把距离吹得好远

but the winds blew us far apart

但故事的最后你好像还是说了拜拜

i think at the end of the story, you said "bye-bye"

Will all that change ?

no. 100th post

2009-05-04T21:53:00.005+08:00

我要改变命运，我要改变自己。改变我的世界，改变一切。

我不要这样放弃。我不会输给天意。

I want to change everything.

改变的后果是得到你或失去你呢？

消失的那一天

下雨的那一天

花落的那一天

教室的那一间

我怎么看不见

消失的下雨天

我好想再淋一遍

从前从前有个人爱你很久

但偏偏风渐渐把距离吹得好远

无路可退

Mm anyway today had english and mathematics test . Math was rather hard though.

tomorrow will be chemistry and literature . wednesday will be physics ...

this week there won't be any fun :(

or at least until friday hahaha!

after midyears will be O level Chinese . hahaha lets not worry about that first , jay chou will help me hahaha. just kidding -.-

today studied TOTAL time at least got 3 to 4 hours ba ! yay !

next monday there seems to be a class outing at sentosa .. hmm no cycling or rollerblading for me .. so what am i going to do ? hahahaha i don't know . beach volleyball ? sunbath? or take mrt to kBOX ? hahaha :)

anyway the main thing is to have fun on that day :)

haha very tired now . gonna do a little bit of workout and bathe and then sleep hehehe.

拜拜！：）

PARTY BOYS

2009-05-02T21:25:00.007+08:00

aHahaHAa ! :)

Today damn fun n n n n n!

Morning went out to meet yuwei , take bus together to Marina Sq .

Then we went KBOX !!

hahahaha we sing a lot of song damm funny !

Today got me , alan , aquila , yuwei , alanSister + boyfriend + another friend

Most Funny - Apologize (Timbaland-Onerepublic)

Most "High" - 撑腰

Hahahah we were like dancing in the room when we singing 撑腰 ! :)

Afterwards went out to play pool :) Today not bad i learnt a lot!

Then it was time for X-Men : Wolverine !

Very nice hahaha then a lot of funny thing happen in the cinema hahahahaha

After that went to vivo eat then come home already :)

Hahaha damn tired . tmr still must stay at home study for the mid - year exam and chinese :(

_______

我问天，“能不能别捉弄我？”

————

party boys之道兄弟为你撑腰
boom yeah boom let's get this party crazy
你在爱情跌倒回家让你撒娇
boom yeah boom let's get this party be there
恋爱之道快找哥儿们讨教
boom yeah boom let's get this party crazy
万一你又出包有我帮你罩
boom yeah boom let's be the party boys

i don't want a boyfriend (boyfriend)
i need a real man
诚实的嘴可靠的肩温柔的眼
real man real man real man real man

Haha jolin tsai rocks :)

天意

2009-05-01T22:17:00.003+08:00

我认命。

I resign to fate.

I give up.

tomorrow go alan birthday outing lo !!! :)

我以为我够坚强，却一天天的失望

少给我一点希望，希望就不是奢望

i'm singing.

2009-04-30T22:06:00.004+08:00

Hahaha today was fun !

School was the boring part only .

After school went home , put down bag , changed clothes then came out : )

after that 5pm went back to school , did finish my chinese exercise till 6 plus , then we played till 7 plus hahaha .

Then , went to yuwei house downstairs to happy - hour ! :)

aha aquila jm alan and yw were there ! we had lots of fun ! :) joking around also

then i felt giddy and my head was spinning so i came home first :) still spinning though. :(

*piak* OOHHH !

请再给我一个理由说你不爱我

please give me another reason to say that you do not love me

如果要走请你记得我
if you have to go , please remember me

也许我太过天真，以为奇迹会发生

probably i was to naive to think that a miracle will happen

see me fly , i'm singing in the sky .

2009-04-28T21:49:00.009+08:00

SEE ME FLY , I'M SINGING IN THE SKY !

27'04'09 Monday

school as usual . had SS MYE after school . i was rather confident at first , but then the second question , asked me to infer from source B . i didn't see source B then i went to infer source C . i found out later then i had to rush through the rest : (

anyway after that cabbed down with aquila and junming to meet yen ting at queensway cause they wanted to buy bag. anyway the bags are like hell expensive la , jm's one was around SGD$120 , yt's one was around SGD$135 . omg ?! anyway after that we went over to yuwei house to visit him cause he disappear for very long hahaha. then went home

28'04'09 Tuesday

school as usual , again . but was quite tired today with a bit of headache. so anyway after school had detention . it was very very very very very boring , as expected . but today a lot of people ! the entire room nearly filled up ! so in the middle the teacher came in ask me aq jc go out to sign yellow form :( hahaha anyway just got 3 demerit points . :(

then after that walk to classroom , today surprised sia ! the entire classroom no one ! usually will have people stay back study but today empty ! then we play basketball among ourselves for a while , today i was on form then aquila was off form hahaha . after that alan took weirong's car home, then we go bubbletea before go home. Ohh btw , i just touched my guitar after 1 years plus! spent 10 mins tuning it hahaha ! im going to learn how to play 彩虹 on it .

I'm getting used to it . Life not thinking of you .

___________

从此以后，别再对我微笑了，好吗？

别一次又一次伤我的心好吗？

真的。别。

全心陪在他的左右吧。

我以为我能全力填满你感情的缺口

也许我太过天真, 以为奇迹会发生 ,

我以为我够坚强, 却一天天的失望
少给我一点希望, 希望就不是奢望

2009-04-27T21:19:00.002+08:00

终于看开爱回不来而你总是太晚明白
最后才把话说开哭着求我留下来
终于看开爱回不来我们面前太多阻碍
你的手却放不开宁愿没出息求我别离开

rainbow

..

rainie love ~

:(

;;;

风云

风云

-

walkman

画沙

byebye (:

.

原来不是我爱错 ，是 我 错。

meow

baby , you know that i miss you

爱＊ 转角

study break

tennis

time to say goodbye

con te partiro

what lies behind the rainbow ?

i'm sorry i can't be perfect

.

溏心风暴

58

iGOTTAFEELINGTONIGHT'sGONNABEAGOODNIGHT

even if the sky is falling down

):

-

abc.fate

iON ORCHARD

11/8

Secret

...

^%^#

13\0

rainbow

everything was an accident

Cliff

我不配

有谁能看穿我的笑脸?

f a i l

^^

:(

life is fragile

我问天

iYYYY

无神论

Why me ？

这世界没别的女人了吗？

给我一个机会

轨迹

我已经相信有些人我永远不必等

搁浅

如果我变成回忆 ?

灰

(:

死亡 是不是终点？

什么 ？

泪

晴天

大丈夫

花蝴蝶

天意

Gre y.

放晴的那一天

no. 100th post

PARTY BOYS

天意

i'm singing.

see me fly , i'm singing in the sky .

原来不是我爱错，是我错。

爱＊转角

死亡是不是终点？

什么？